the moment i realized that i was really needing some help and support,
i panicked, and thought oh my god i might be leaving you behind.
i felt horrible
i felt like i was getting ready to betray you in some way
the moment i realized i could get better,
i panicked, and felt this deep sense of betrayal
as though i was going to leave you behind
behind to suffer without me
behind to suffer all alone.
i just can’t continue to suffer your addiction
i just can not continue to watch the horrors of it all
i just can’t stand seeing you like this, or me like this
i am leaving you behind, i am getting support and help
i am getting healthier
